Update!

Nothing big but I figured that the people who have been messaging me deserve to know.

The past few days have been really tough I was questioning the relationship which always isn’t good. But yesterday we talked for a while he even called. We didnt talk about why he was MIA but we had an actual conversation that the both of us missed. He told me the reason he was gone and he knows it’s not an excuse but I’m proud about what he’s doing if that makes any sense. I just wish he could of told me sooner so I could have been more supportive. Hopefully something good will come out of it. He apologized multiple times and I know he’s apologetic and I respect it but it still doesn’t make up for what happened.

I hope all is well with you all and you guys are staying strong even though it’s easier said then done.

And when I think the worst has happened..

It’s only just begun…

I think it’s ending

We haven’t had a legit conversation in a month. There’s been a few Facebook messages here and there but it’s not enough. He’s been too busy with work I know it sounds selfish but it’s not fair to me or him. He doesn’t seem happy and right now I’m not happy. I just want to be in the right state of mind if I do end up calling it off. Ugh this is painful.

If we do break up the girl he ends up with and marrying will be extremely lucky.

Welp We are talking via facebook with one message a day…

Ya not sure how much longer i can do this. If he doesn’t have time for me then why the hell are we still together?

When family guy makes fun of one of my favorite movies <3

Turns my night around a little

Thinking too out loud

I’ve felt single for a while now. Im head over heels in love with him but I’ve been sleeping without holding his sweatshirt, these last few weeks that have pushed me over the edge and the chance of us meeting has made me hold on. And maybe I’m just thinking out loud maybe too loud but maybe just Maybe it’s time to let go…
Not sure what to do. We’ve talked twice the past two weeks. Maybe I’m just feeling this way because I’m out of my happy pills. I just wish I could speak to my boyfriend.